Just quickly though, may I ask why your disenchantment with an organized religion disenchanted you with the idea of an existing God? Were the two that conflated in your mind? For my part, I have often thought that as my attachment with an organized religion waxed, my attachment to God waned - like the one substituted for the other in the same way that language substitutes for an idea - like the short-cut served as a diversion from the ultimate goal: a relationship with God. But in my essence, my core, I`ve always felt as if there was a power out there that was greater than me, that was creative, revelatory, reflective, and redemptive in nature (and here, i suppose one regresses into a definitional discussion of what "God" is.... but it`s altogether necessary if we are to discuss the propriety of Atheism, or a belief that "God" does not exist).

My thinking in a poorly descriptive nutshell: God is the body of all thought, idea, *consciousness*. I view God (consciousness) as external, something that our brains tap into (think: brain as radio tower). I have had occasion to think of God as the polar opposite of flesh, Earth, matter. But see the both as existing always.

I am more than interested to hear your views on this and anything else related to the subject as my own thinking is anything but firm and finalized.